What to do...

I feel so lost, so random and so out of control with my thoughts.  I don't always feel this way.  I don't always not know what to do with myself or where to turn or what to think of.  It's been this way for a few months now, feeling lost in my head with my thoughts being so random that I can't finish anything I start. 

For instance, last night I finally decided upon drawing for a bit after putting some blueberry muffins in the oven.  Well, that didn't go as planned because by the time I got back upstairs after finding all of my drawing materials my fiance was being super romantic, had candles and incense lit and just wanted to spend some quality time with me.  So I put my things down and we snacked on some muffins and just hung out. 

Things were going well and it looked like I might have been able to actually do the drawing I wanted when our 8 month old daughter decided she wanted to be awake after taking an hour and a half long nap that started at 8 pm and ended at 9:30 pm.  She was up til midnight then before she finally went back down for bed for the night. 

By that time I was in no mood to draw, my muse had left me.  I decided a little facebook perusing and some game time would be just what I needed to unwind before bed, so that's what I did.

Do you see what I mean?  I never get to finish what I start.  No matter what it is.  I barely ever get to complete a task without something coming up that needs to be taken care of or is more important than the task I started, like taking care of my daughter.

I just don't know what to do to get my fiance and mother to understand when I say I need some ME time and I want to be left alone that that is exactly what I want and NEED.  It really bothers me that everyone else in the house gets their "me" time and their time to unwind but mine doesn't start until after my daughter has gone to bed and by then I'm so exhausted there's really nothing I want to do.

So irritating.  Just lost, don't know what to do with my self or where to go or how to fix this and it's becoming a real problem.  I just don't know.  :(